Numb

Numb

My body, numb with painless agony

Slips into the fiery waters of oblivion

My mind, filled to the brim with empty thoughts

Sinks into the abyss that is null

The monochrome grey walls compress onto me

Tears refuse to flow into the colourless river that is my mind

I am paralysed by my lack of emotion;

My inability to truly smile, laugh, or cry

The only scream able to escape

Is that of silence

A pain deeper than that of death itself

But I put on my paper bag of emotions

Hide the parallel lines whispered on my wrists

I smile

I laugh

I cry

All the while slowly dying inside my own mind

Hellcat (2016)